Happy anniversary to resistance is fruitful

December 27, 2009
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I started this blog one year ago today.

What a difference a year can make.

After several years of self-imposed isolation–mostly due to the effects caused by being over-drugged by allopathic doctors–I started re-emerging as a participant in the world around me.

Blogging was a part of that.

I started blogging mostly for myself, thinking it would be a way to journal my personal experience.  That really hasn’t happened here, or at least not the way I imagined.  My experience with blogging at Open Salon turned sour when they commercialized that site, and though my personal blog gets far fewer “hits”, it feels good to be independent.

No doubt that I am still doing this for myself.  That others have discovered my writing and found value in it is just icing on the cake.

In the past year I have gotten to know several other AIDS questioners, many of them also dealing with health issues and a so-called “poz” diagnosis.  That has helped destroy the feeling of isolation I had been under for so long.

Because of this blog I reconnected with an old friend in my own community, Kansas City, whose personal experience also defies the AIDS paradigm.

I have also met others who live farther away, but thanks to the Internet, they are as accessible as though they lived next door.

This blog will soon move to my own domain.  I had hoped to have that done for this anniversary, but it is proving more complicated than I had hoped.  Blogging here at wordpress.com has been a great experience and I recommend them to anyone wanting to blog.  Having my own site will only increase my options for the future.

Meanwhile I have been collaborating online with other dissidents on a new project based on a vision of community and collaboration that will hopefully prove to be a valuable asset to the AIDS dissident community.

Stay tuned.  The best is yet to come!

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How to profit from an AIDS denialist

December 12, 2009

Have I got a great investment opportunity for one of those AIDS apologists–someone who believes that any person testing positive for HIV antibodies will inevitably get AIDS and die in short order if they don’t take the drugs.

I have a life insurance policy that I can no longer afford to keep, and I’ve decided to cash it in while alive, rather than after I’m dead.  It is life insurance, after all.

I’ll give the details below, but here’s the gist of the offer:  I will sell my life insurance policy for a fraction of the death benefit value and in return I will pledge to never take ARVs (anti-retroviral drugs).  I’m willing to sign whatever legal document is required to protect the investor.

According to the orthodox view of HIV and AIDS, I have surely already exceeded the average life expectancy for an HIV-positive person who does not take AIDS drugs.  I’ve been poz for eleven years, since December, 1998.  I quit taking all HIV-related medications nearly seven years ago in February, 2003 and do not intend to take them again.  Actually, I have no idea how long someone is expected to live without the drugs, but know it isn’t supposed to be very long.  I can find no research willing to take a stab at current life expectancy without ARVs since last century, so anyone with that information is welcome to contact me.

This is a MetLife whole life policy with a face value of $88,000, current death benefit of $93,350, and an annual premium of $2,242.64.  There is an outstanding loan of about $8,500.

These types of policies used to be hot commodities for viatical settlement companies a decade ago, often paying up to 85% of face value, but have fallen out of favor since poz people are no longer dropping like flies.  Conventional wisdom attributes this improvement in longevity to ARVs, though some of us are finding out that we can live well without the drugs, provided we make the changes to our lifestyle necessary for good health.  AIDStruthers are adamant this isn’t possible.

I am not one of those rare “elite controllers” who have an undetectable viral load without ARVs.  I have a detectable viral load that bounces around.  My complete lab history can be seen right here on my blog.

If I’m wrong, I should be dead in a few years, right?  So a smart orthodox investor might be interested in buying my policy, paying the premiums and collecting the death benefit when I succumb to their theory.

Given those circumstances, and my willingness to forego any AIDS drugs, I think asking for 50% of the face value is a great bargain, but I might even be willing to negotiate an offer for less. I’ll payoff the loan from my portion of the sale, of course.  Assuming I live another five years (a preposterous assumption according to the AIDS orthodoxy), the investor will have contributed about $55,000 to collect more than a $93,000 payoff.

I’m also open to just about any other reasonable offer, minus the above pledge to never take ARVs, as I’m considering relinquishing the policy for the existing cash value (a pittance).  I’d love to do better and given the beliefs of so many AIDStruthers, I don’t see how one of them can pass up this opportunity to turn a goodly profit and have a chance to gloat at my demise at the same time!

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Questioners not allowed at “HIV Controllers” forum

December 5, 2009

I have probably spent at least ten thousand hours online the last ten years or so and I am still stumbling onto new blogs and websites that deal with HIV and AIDS issues from various perspectives, so I’m pretty familiar with the most common inconsistencies, aka “mysteries”, of the HIV=AIDS hypothesis.  Still, I was taken aback recently when I was told I would not be allowed to participate in, or even monitor a forum for long term survivors like myself, solely because I consider myself an open-minded questioner of the AIDS orthodoxy.

You see,  I recently read a press release at thebody.com about a new forum for “HIV Controllers”, those people who test positive on the antibody test developed by Robert Gallo, the now discredited one-time “discoverer” of the HI virus, but who do not get sick, or perhaps do not even test for a “viral load”, despite not taking any so-called antiretroviral drugs. The press release was from the Zephyr Foundation, founded by 16-year-survivor Loreen Willenberg.

I wanted to know if I fit the category of a HIV controller. I have never had one of the “AIDS-defining” opportunistic infections, though I do have a detectable viral load that bounces around erratically. I have also technically met the definition of “AIDS” by having had a cd4 count of less than 200, three times in 2002, which was the last year I took antiretroviral drugs (ARVs). Lately that count has been averaging about 400, though like the VL, it is also a moving target.
When I first contacted Willenberg about joining the newly announced forum, I shared this same basic history and background to find out if I met the forum’s definition of a HIV Controller. This was her initial response: Read the rest of this entry »


J Todd DeShong – Baylor Health’s online AIDS diagnostician – UPDATED

September 26, 2009

Normally I wouldn’t want to waste this much time or bandwidth on such a matter, but the questionable activities involved justify calling this insignificant gnat out.  He’s finally irritated me enough that I have to swat him.  Besides, I’m off my feet for a few days and have some extra time on my hands, or maybe it’s just a side effect of the  antibiotic.

The leg

I recently woke up with a sudden, acute bacterial infection in my left leg, the same leg that has had two DVT blood clots in three years and has a history of recurring and slow-healing sores.  The name for the condition that results in this type of skin problem in the leg is called venous insufficiency and the sores are venous ulcers.  It is not uncommon (unlike, say… Kaposi sarcoma).

I know what the problem is and I am aware of a treatment center I want to go to that offers a non-invasive and drug-free protocol that even Medicare is convinced helps.

I posted a picture of my leg, seeking opinions about using antibiotics to treat it, on the website AIDS Myth Exposed, which I help moderate. I  had some ulterior motives, as I wanted to see what members’ reaction would be, considering some them seem to be opposed to all allopathic interventions, regardless of circumstances. I expected a variety of responses and got some.

Unsolicited email diagnosis and digital sleuthing

J Todd DeShong, in over his head

J Todd DeShong, in over his head

I was pretty surprised when that post resulted in a comment on this, my personal blog, from an anti-“AIDS denialist” activist who is well known among some of us AIDS questioners for his taunting and abusive personality and caustic, even toxic writing style. I really wasn’t so much shocked that J Todd DeShong would email me with his “concern”  as I was amazed that he advised me from his workplace, Baylor Health Care Systems in Dallas, that I seek medical care for Kaposi sarcoma, a serious and rare cancer!

The IP address in question was included in the email WordPress forwards to me with every new comment, and it belongs to Baylor Health Care Systems.  This same IP address is one of, if not  the  most frequent visitor to the resistance is fruitful blog, according to statcounter.com, a tracking service I use. I’ve been curious for some time who this regular visitor to my blog might be. Now I know. (Hi Todd!)

DeShong has visited this blog from his work IP address at least Read the rest of this entry »


Must-see “AIDS” film to show in KC

August 13, 2009

the HIV/AIDS story is being rewritten

the HIV/AIDS story is being rewritten

I’ve been anxiously waiting to see House of Numbers, the most talked about documentary dealing with AIDS this year. Now the film has been booked to show at the Kansas International Film Festival next month.

To get an idea of the significance of the confusing and contradictory comments made by leading AIDS researchers around the world, watch the trailer here.

House of Numbers stirred quite a row of controversy when it screened in Boston this Spring, then went on to be awarded the “Best of Festival” at Golden Colorado’s Docuwest Film Festival last week.

The film will be shown Sunday,  September 20 at 3:10 pm at the Glenwood Theatre, 9575 Metcalf Ave in Overland Park. (NOTE: Date has been corrected from my original post.)

If anyone else is interested in meeting after the film for discussion, please contact me and I’ll see what can be arranged.

  • “We can be exposed to HIV many times without being chronically infected. Our immune system will get rid of the virus within a few weeks, if you have a good immune system.”

– Luc Montagnier, 2008 Nobel Laureate for Discovery of HIV, in the documentary “House of Numbers,” 2009

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Help send a missionary to Oakland (updated)

July 19, 2009
This picture from the August 4, 1978 Newsweek shows me boosting a fellow religious zealot over a wall during "boot camp".

This picture from the August 4, 1978 issue of Newsweek shows me boosting a fellow religious zealot over a wall during "boot camp".

I really want to attend the 2009 Rethinking AIDS conference, to be held in Oakland this fall, but am not sure I’ll be able to afford it since Michael has just been laid off from his job.

Asking for money is not a new experience for me. Getting it, however is another story. My first attempt at mission work was as a teenager. I spent a summer in Brasil building a dormitory for Teen Missions.

In the decades since then I’ve helped raise tens of thousands of dollars on behalf of other gay and AIDS-related causes, as well a political race for city council.

I didn’t raise enough money to pay for that trip to Brasil and I don’t expect to for this conference either, but I’m still willing to ask for help. I expect it will cost $700-800 to go.

If anyone can spare a few bucks, I promise to report on the experience here. I will also post a full accounting for donations and expenses, and in the extremely unlikely event more is donated than is needed to pay for airfare, lodging and conference fees (really, who are we kidding?), I’ll donate the balance to Rethinking AIDS. Fair enough?

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UPDATE:  For a variety of reasons, I no longer plan to attend the RA2009 conference and have received no donations to do so.  I’ll leave this post up as wishful thinking and for the sake of former notoriety.

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Rethinking AIDS Day

April 23, 2009

April 23 is Rethinking AIDS Day. Good thing someone decided such a day is needed, because I’ve been  procrastinating and struggling to write the “AIDS Dissidence 101” post for Open Salon, where I also blog, that several people there have requested for quite some time now. One of the biggest problem I’ve encountered is trying to address the many issues raised by this debate in a format and length that will be read.

I also realized quickly that what I would want to share has already been written elsewhere. There have been more than 50 books written challenging various aspects of the AIDS hypothesis. A list of them can be found at AIDSwiki. In addition, there are at least as many websites, many of them listed on the blogroll on the right.

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THE ROTTED CORNERSTONE: Robert Gallo


When the cause of the first few cases of immune collapse in a handful of gay men was first being examined in the early 1980s, numerous viable theories were considered: infection with cytomegalovirus, the use of amyl nitrite or butyl nitrate poppers, and immune overload from a “fast track” lifestyle that included multiple STDs and prescription drugs, to name a few.

These men were not “previously healthy”, as described by the CDC in the first public announcement of a new immune deficiency in gay men and there are many possible reasons they got sick and died. Research into all possible causes other than a virus were squashed once U.S. Secretary of Health Margaret Heckler announced in 1983 that Robert Gallo had discovered the virus that causes AIDS.

Gallo’s never isolated the virus he claims to have discovered. His research involved mixing lymph tissue from ten gay men with the then known symptoms for AIDS, stimulating them with chemicals in order to get something to grow in cell cultures from leukemia patients! This “soup” became the basis for HIV-antibody tests, diagnoses and treatment1,2

Incredibly, the scientific community never took the time to verify Gallo’s claim then and nearly all subsequent research is built on his word. Gallo has since proven Read the rest of this entry »